A few months back I signed up to run my first (and possibly last) half marathon! And I’ve been becoming increasingly frustrated that I’m not getting faster quicker or that I’m not increasing my distance fast enough.
Today I went for a run, without a particular distance in mind and decided to take the dog with me, thinking that when she stops (as she does frequently) that I could also stop for some water.
After about 1.5 miles I felt like God gently said “you’ve stopped running your race and your trying to run the race of other people”.
And I realised that without even really noticing, I’d taken my focus from God and placed it on comparing myself with other people, not just in running but in other areas too.
Why am I not running as far or fast as they are
How can I keep up with them
Why am I not as confident or passionate in my speaking as…
Why can’t I be more like…when I speak in Church
I should be able to do…
This morning God very gently encouraged me to just run, to run without constantly checking my pace, to run and stop when the dog stopped and to just keep going. At about 2.5 miles I felt God said to go for 7 miles, further than I’ve run in a long time. This goal didn’t freak me out but I trusted that God would get me through the distance and for the first time in a long time when I finished I felt like I could have gone further.
But how easy is it for all of us to take our eyes off the ‘race’ we’ve each been called to and compare ourselves to other people running their own race, whatever that may be. There are things I’m called to and ways I’m called to do them and there are things I’m not called to.
One of the things I feel called to is to speak out on mental health and I’m being obedient to that, trusting that my step of obedience is all that is required and God is in control of the rest. But I take my eyes off Jesus and desire to be more like other people when all God asks of me is to step out in vulnerability, he just asks me to show up while I’m all concerned about the presentation of the message.
When I got home this morning, after focusing on God and my own race, I felt encouraged, motivated and energised to push on, running my own race, keeping my eyes fixed on Jesus. And that is what I take in the other races that God has called me to, in speaking up front, in hearing God and responding to his voice, in supporting my husband in leading our Church.
I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover.
So my thought for you today is, are you running your own race?
And let us run￼ with perseverance￼ the race marked out for us,￼ fixing our eyes on Jesus